Hand Poised On Knob

Hand Poised On Knob

You’ve had your bags packed
For a very long time
No chance to think it over
Just grabbed your essentials
Essentially you’re gone.

But still you remain
For what or why
You’re not sure yourself
And that’s the problem, isn’t it?

And that’s a problem
Isn’t it?

Remaining behind the door
Hand on knob
Certain of the monster behind you
Not sure of the monsters beyond
Duffle bag on your back
Mouth dry as cotton
Frozen
So you remain another day.

But your bags are packed
And in your head you’re gone
Living your life this way
One day at a time
One monster clawing at your back
God knows what waiting beyond.

© Copyright 2012 Joseph A. Pinto. All Rights Reserved.

“Oats” in The Sirens Call eZine

I‘m happy to announce that my story “Oats” is currently appearing in The Sirens Call eZine Issue #8 – Men in Horror!

Sirens Call has consistently published strong anthologies since emerging on the horror scene, and their eZines have definitely followed suit.  Issue #8 is no different.  98 pages of horrific fun featuring short stories, flash fiction, poetry, artwork and more.  The unbelievable thing is that the ladies over at Sirens Call make their eZines free to everyone.  Download and read it chunks at a time or devour it all at once!  The choice is yours!

What’s so special about “Oats,” you ask?  Well, I’ve kept and maintained a collection of story ideas since 1992, and no matter how silly or odd an idea may sound, into my tome it goes!  It could be something snipped from the news, or a nightmarish conjuring from within my head.  No idea is judged; no idea deemed too good or bad.

Oats” originated around 1993 as an unnamed, loose story about a child who loses a tooth and the evil father who won’t allow said child to keep it.  I knew that Sirens Call was looking for submissions for Issue #8, so I decided it would be fun to go burrowing into my journal.  Lo and behold, an entry caught my eye.  Twenty years later, I am proud of the fact I birthed that idea to fruition.

So what do you get when you mix a creepy tooth fairy and my love for oatmeal in one bowl?  Well, “Oats” of course.

Please download Sirens Call Publications Issue #8 – Men in Horror! for free and read “Oats“, which is on page 34, along with the a multitude of fine stories by talented writers including two other Pen of the Damned members!.  Please drop me a message and let me know what you think.

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Complete

Complete

I‘ll take what’s left of you

And reassemble your pieces

No need for glue

No use for twine

For you’re perfect broken

Shattered

Pieces long gone.

I’ll lay you across the table,

my jigsaw.

The sum of your parts

Telling a story

Filled with gaping holes

That make perfect sense

Only for me.

Copyright © 2012 Joseph A. Pinto – All Rights Reserved.

Insight behind “Sweet Nectar of Life”

I had a blast writing “Sweet Nectar of Life!”  It wasn’t such a blast getting there, however.

Just months before crafting the tale, my daughter entered this world.  I simply didn’t know how I’d cope.  I’d lost my father to pancreatic cancer only two months before, and the swell and swing of emotions was simply beyond my grasp.  I couldn’t comprehend that my own father was gone, let alone that I was becoming one.  It became a dark time within my heart, and I was oblivious to the sunshine surrounding me.

So how could I have had so much fun writing “Sweet Nectar of Life?”  It became very therapeutic for me; the story spoke and I listened.  My tongue firmly planted in my cheek throughout, it is nonetheless a dark tale, and the suspense and cold dread are without question palpable.  More than anything else though, “Sweet Nectar of Life” taught me an invaluable lesson.  If I did “dad” things instead of thinking I was now a “dad,” well, then “dad” would be just fine.  And I was.  From that point forward, being anything other than a dad to my sweet little sunshine seemed incomprehensible, and still is to this day.

Sweet Nectar of Life” is currently in the Cruentus Libri Press anthology ‘The Dark Side of the Womb.’  A glowing review for the anthology can be found at Review Folder.

Wet your appetite with a little taste:

“Sweet Nectar of Life”

Yet did I somehow… no, impossible!  I’m beginning to sound like a crazy man.  But what if… what if I’d inadvertently cursed the child while it still lay in its mother’s womb?  Like the hex the infamous Mother Leeds placed on her ill-fated thirteenth infant, doomed to suffer a fate only the damned could appreciate. 

I’d done no such thing, of course.  Not consciously.  Oh but how the worry picks at my brain the way a rat nibbles on discarded scraps!  And I did have my worries.  I was justified to have my worries.  I’d expect any man to have them – but would they voice them as I had?  Raising a child in today’s world… the corruption of society… the erosion of morals… the implosion of economics…  I’m not ashamed for stating that a man and woman could be considered downright selfish for introducing an innocent soul into this cesspool we call humanity.  What is greater – the loss or the gain?   

My wife, as expected, was appalled.  My arguments (which I believed as entirely sensible and she as entirely unforgivable) drove her from our room on numerous occasions.  God granted the miracle of birth; did He not also grant the miracle of free will, thought and speech?  Why couldn’t I exercise my own?  So many nights I left my bed to lay upon the couch as the question ping-ponged inside my head.  And just before dawn, face drawn from distress and insomnia, I’d sneak back into bed again, finding my wife the way I left her – sleeping upon her side, pillow between her knees, one hand dangling over the edge of the mattress, the other gripping her swollen stomach…

Give “Sweet Nectar of Life” a loving home, won’t you?  It may be the last thing you ever do…

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Treason

Treason

(acoustic guitar)

 

My words they’ve been swept away

Feeling much the castaway

If only I could bring back yesterday now,

It’s all treason

It’s all treason

Your eyes blaze like July.

Still there’s nothing I remember

Of your cold heart December

Such subtleties whispering goodbye.

My thoughts they’ve been led astray

Searching for the right of way

If only I could have the right to say now,

What’s your reason

What’s your reason

Your eyes blaze like July.

Still there’s nothing I remember

Of our snowbound December

Such casualties of war and of lies.

It’s all treason

It’s all treason

Your eyes blaze like July.

Still there’s nothing I remember

Of your cold heart December

Such subtleties whispering goodbye.

It’s all treason

It’s all treason

It’s all treason

It’s all treason

Such subtleties whispering goodbye.

Copyright © 2013 Joseph A. Pinto – All Rights Reserved.

‘Sex-Starved Thing’ on Pen of the Damned

Where do I even begin?  Maybe I should start by saying that I don’t “game plan” my writing.  I sit; I write.  It’s that simple.  I never steer a story’s direction, nor do I even attempt to influence it in any way.  I see images in my mind; I feel emotions wash over me.  Then I go about creating…  It’s not something I can easily describe.

Each story has life.  Each story is a life.  It’s my responsibility to birth it.  I allow each their own identity.  They are my children, and I am equally proud of them all.

Have you read Sex-Starved Thing on Pen of the Damned yet?  I have no issue telling you it’s quite the story.  It’s a depraved tale about a man and his Sex-Starved Thing.  It is brutal.  It is violent.  It is disturbing.  Yet it’s about as beautiful a piece of prose as I have ever written.

I created Sex-Starved Thing while sitting in my basement.  Ipad on my lap; wine on my table.  Stereo cranked.  No motive inside my head.  But there it was: “Nails grate across stone; she comes for me.”  The beginnings of a new life.  As I said earlier, it’s that simple.  No game plan.  No map.

But that only scratches the surface.  True, I had no idea how my story would develop.  But once crafted, I realized my subconscious screamed out on many darker levels.  Is Sex-Starved Thing a state of unconditional love or a condemnation to love’s conditions?  Hmm.  So many things unanswered; so many angles left to ponder on your own.

What does it stir within you?

Please enjoy Sex-Starved Thing on Pen of the Damned

My dearest THINK

I won my six-figure deal last week.

My contract signed inside my daughter’s preschool classroom of all places.  Her teacher asked if I would participate in Read Across America week, and I agreed.  It was a tough crowd; preschoolers know what they want and when they want it.  Straight shooters, these preschoolers.  Rougher and more critical than any literary agent or editor I’ve come across.

I settled into a rocking chair set solely for this purpose. Looking up, I saw their tiny faces scrunched before me.  Scrutinizing.  My daughter’s included.  Interested neither in adjectives nor metaphors, sentence structure as useless to them as a wrapper with no candy hidden inside, they waited.  Give them what they desire; magic! And you had better deliver in its telling…

Carefully and reverently, I opened the tome upon my lap.  “You can think up some birds…”  I began, my mouth dreadfully parched, fingers trembling upon the book’s gleaming surface.

Excuse me, where’s your hair?”

Along my brow broke a bead of sweat.  My eyes flicked away from the tale for a moment; trepidation mounting.  Confidence shaken.  I tremulously stumbled, “Umm…that’s what you can do.  You can think about yellow or think about—”

Athena’s daddy, I asked where’s your hair?”

All eyes…all narrowed, measuring eyes…upon me.  Did I mention they were a tough crowd?  I reached into my back pocket, pulled forth my last vestige of hope then extended a sealed fist to my diminutive blond heckler.  “Take this,” I croaked, engulfing his open palm.  “It’s my last hair seed.  Grow this for me so one day I can plant it back on my head.”

Silence. What had I done?  Awful, black tombed silence.  Time stood still.  Then an eruption of unearthly shrieks.  Earsplitting giggles.  Tiny bodies jumping in delirium.  My daughter beaming.

Give them what they desire.

“Think!  Think and wonder.  Wonder and think,” I proclaimed, nailing each verse to perfection, my inflection as never before.  Enchanting the room.  “How much water can fifty-five elephants drink?”

Magic.  It had better be in the telling.

I finished my book reading, ears humming to the roar of joyous children.  My goddess rushed to me and wrapped her arms around my neck.  “Thank you for reading to us, Daddy.”

I won my six-figure deal last week.  Signed and sealed forever in my heart.

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Insight behind “Memorial”

I wrote ‘Memorial” in response to an anthology call from Sirens Call Publications for ‘Twisted Realities: Of Myth and Monstrosity’.  The premise intrigued me; a collection of tales exploring mythology from any culture, transformed into a modern-day horror.  Mythology, primarily Greek mythology, has transfixed me since I had my first taste of it as a little kid, so when the opportunity arose, I jumped on it.

I enjoy thinking outside the box when writing, so I knew I wasn’t interested in one of the more popular Greek myths.  Almost instantly my mind was drawn to the legend of Pygmalion, a renowned sculptor from Cyprus, whose creations were so flawless they bordered on lifelike.  The maidens of Cyprus all pined for Pygmalion, but he cared not for their affections.  For Pygmalion, his work remained his only passion.  Incredibly, Pygmalion falls in love with one of his own sculptures, a wondrous carving of a woman, and for a long time thereafter lives a wretched existence loving a lifeless thing.

As the myth goes, on the day of the feast dedicated to the goddess Venus, Pygmalion prays to her that he might find a maiden as magnificent as his beloved statue.  Venus hears his prayer and grants Pygmalion’s sculpture life.  Pygmalion names his new maiden Galatea; they marry and eventually have a son named Paphos.

The myth of Pygmalion reads very much like a love story.

But for those who have read my work before, clearly my tale was not going to turn out that way.  I grabbed it by the throat and made it my own blend of pain and horror.

“Memorial” is the tale of two brothers: Anthony, the arrogant and jealous heir to his family’s shipping business, and Nicholas, a brilliant yet reclusive sculptor.  Wedged between them is Nicholas’ tragic love for Anthony’s wife, Catarina.  Think you have an idea where this story is headed?  Guess again.  If there’s one thing you’ll learn about me, it’s that I’m anything but predictable.

Indulge in a sample, will you?

Memorial

“At last, bravado found at the bottom of your glass.  Is that the residue of passion, Nicholas, or merely passion’s inspiration?”

A thread’s breadth parted Nicholas’ lips as bourbon drizzled tongue.  Eyes danced but to the song of another day, transfixed by noiseless, ghostly chords.  “Some people wish to choose their vice.  But for others, the vice chooses them.”

“Killing yourself slowly with alcohol now, then.”

“It’s not alcohol of which I speak.”  The words hung between them.

Hesitation.  Eventually Anthony loomed over the table.  “She’s gone, Nicholas,” and instantly the music ceased; a blackened veil draped his features.  Hand plummeted to the table, the snifter nearly shattering atop the sticky grain.  Bourbon splashed Anthony’s knuckles, but fast his posture remained.  He studied his brother with dulled satisfaction.  Slowly, by inches, he lowered his considerable frame, pouring his bulk into the opposite seat.  Watching intently.  Silence, broken only by Nicholas’ strangled mewls.

Nicholas dabbed at the corner of his trembling lips.  “When?” His voice a hoarse murmur.

“Six months ago.  You’ve changed your haunts.  It’s made finding you difficult, but not impossible.  I thought you had fallen from the face of the earth, too.  Like Catarina.”

Stinging, the words.  Nicholas winced, eyes searching.  Searching.

“The illness…came on suddenly.  The doctors could do nothing.  Her body already rampant with disease, but Catarina, she said little.  You should know well of my wife’s strength.”  Anthony’s back stiffened in anticipation, but his brother, snared within the throes of paralysis, offered nothing.  “You should know well of many things concerning my wife.”

A sharp exhalation escaped Nicholas’ lips.

“Aah, poor Nicholas.  The sound of guilt?”  Anthony leaned across the table.  “I’ve known about you all this time.”


You can find “Memorial” in print through Sirens Call Publications ‘Twisted Realities: Of Myth and Monstrosity’ at Amazon, CreateSpace

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I Just Want

In some past life, I lived in New Orleans.  I’m quite sure of it.

Perched on the stoop of a jazz club, guitar in hand.  Crooning some laid back melody.  A sultry connection of souls.

In some past life, I lived in New Orleans.  Sang for the living.  Made music for the dead.

I wrote this song some time ago.  Who knows…maybe even longer than that.  I fancy I was a silky tongued musician.  Nothing more than a smoky silhouette in a Big Easy doorway.

You might have heard me sing this before.  In some past life.

I’m quite sure of it…

I Just Want

I don’t want to take your clothes off, baby

I just want to lay here and look deep into your eyes.

I don’t want to take your clothes off, baby

I just want to lay here and look deep into your eyes.

Feel the magic grow between us, darling

A man never felt so alive

So alive.

(instrumental)

I don’t want to scare you, baby

I just want to steal your breath away.

I don’t want to scare you, baby

I just want to steal your breath away.

Feel your hair brush against my neck, darling

Melt this night down into day

Into day.

What you got I want a piece of, sugar

From your toes straight to your fingertips.

You know you’re always on my mind, sugar

I can’t wait to kiss your honey lips.

I’ll be the shoulder you can lean on

I’ll be the mountain you can’t miss.

(instrumental)

I don’t want to take your clothes off, baby

I just want to undress you with my eyes.

I don’t want to take your clothes off, baby

I just want to undress you with my eyes.

Feel you tremble beneath my fingers, darling

Make your tender heart come alive

Come alive.

I don’t want you to frown no more, baby

I just want to keep all your clouds away.

I don’t want you to frown no more, baby

I just want to keep all your clouds away.

Be the sun to keep you growing, darling

Be the music behind all you say

All you say.

Copyright © 2013 Joseph A. Pinto – All Rights Reserved.

‘Run’ on Pen of the Damned

For me, the most enjoyable part of writing horror fiction is not having a clue what you’re writing about in the first place.  Sometimes you’ll have an idea or sense of structure in terms of where a particular story will be headed.  And others come from the blue.  My story Run on Pen of the Damned is just that, and man, it was fun to write.

Flash fiction, contrary to belief, is not the easiest prose to create.  Your words require impact, all at a minimum.  The fat must be whittled from said prose’s bones.  The mood, the ambiance, it all needs to capture the reader at once.  It’s not a sparring contest.  You’re not trading jabs; you wish to punch the reader, knock their senses out.  Game over.  The trick, of course, is having them enjoy the assault.

Run is the story of a mysterious man known to locals only as the Runner.  When I was young, my father reminded me to keep my ego in check.  “There’s always someone stronger, bigger than you out there,” he told me.  His lesson immediately came to mind the first time I read my story back to myself.  I believe it was a lesson well learned.  I’m wondering what you will think…

Please enjoy Run, only at Pen of the Damned